Today I learned a new English word "Binge". After a Binge dinner, I went out for one hours quick walk. Hopefully it will help me not to gain more weight.
Since beginning of this year, I started to do regular sport such as running, my weight went down slightly from 52.5 kg to around 50kg. No matter how much sport I did, due to my unstable diet, I never get under 50kg.
Since August, I controlled the diet very strict, my weight then went down to 48kg. After moved to Nürnberg, I changed from running to quick walking. Because I found I enjoy quick walking more than just running. Running was too much stress to me.
Unfortunately this dinner I just couldn't control myself to stop eating, until the refrigerator was empty. Luckily I didn't save too much food in the refrigerator.
I started to look at the reason why today I couldn't control myself. Then I found as long as I feel tired, then I always keep eating without stop.In the past days my sleep was too short, and this morning I had to get up at 5 a.m to drive two hours to my company for one day's meeting.When I came back in the afternoon at 6p.m, I felt crazy about food:-(
Maybe I shouldn't start to eat anything if I feel tired, just go to sleep or rest until my body is recovered.Hopefully I will not experience the feeling about overeating again.
If you exercise regularly, you don't have to worry about your weight so much. Being fit is more important than being light.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the quick reply. I think I put too much pressure on myself for losing weight and to look better. That why in the whole year I have been struggling in myself being not eating and then overeating. I finally made in the last month without over eating.But today I couldn't control it. I just don't like the feeling being so full and the stomach over stuffed.
ReplyDeleteI thought about today's situation because 1, I was tired because I didnt have enough sleep in the past days and the whole day I was not concentrated.2, I was alone at home. 3, I was eating in front of the computer screen.
Lingling
Then don't give yourself too much pressure. I've seen all of your pictures and you are always a good looking girl. You really need not to worry about your weight. Eating disorder is harmful to health.
ReplyDeleteRecently I try not to give myself too much pressure. My goal is to lose one or two more kg as my height is 162 cm, and not to overeat.
ReplyDeleteLingling
Hi Ling Ling,
ReplyDeleteSeems you are getting good advice, and I concur that you seem always to look good as you are, even as weight varies a bit. Also, the exercise you talk about in later posts should work very well.
One rule that works even for a male seems to be that about 2 mi/3.2km of walking in a day lets your body set both its metabolism and appetite correctly; thus your food will go to good use, and you won't be tempted to over-eat either.
I had the thought that you are in Germany now, and the food is as you know quite different. It is heavy food, more winter food, much of the time. I don't know how you and Martin balance choice of German or Chinese meals, but this may be part of the issue. Asian food has much more volume per calories, at least the ordinary food. I remember how I learned to eat in Korea, after losing quite a bit of weight.
But I think you are also wise to consider the emotional side of things. Of course with Martin away, and with the stresses natural to your airlines, long-distance job, not just the far-away meeting, you are bound to have some low feelings some of the time.
Exercise is one of the natural things that can help with this. Also, I remember a line from a movie, actually 'What Women Want' with Mel Gibson being very funny in it often, but also honest in a particular way. When he is sad for not being with the girl, he goes to the refrigerator, but then he says to himself, 'You are not going to find her there...'. It's a true moment.
I've thought you have done very well in your coming to Germany, understanding how it is not all easy. I think others feel the same, Ling Ling, particularly those of us who have done things like this, lived in lives like this.
Be a little wise with yourself, which means to be a little easy, be a little truly kind, with yourself.
Appreciate what you are learning, each day and each experience, and smile in a way that relaxes you -- what you do is very worthwhile, and has a good story to it, actually many stories, each a good one.
Best,
Clive
Hi Clive: Thanks for the nice comment.
ReplyDeleteSame as many of my Chinese colleagues, we found out that actually many Germany eat just a little food, compare to Chinese. Chinese people eat a big amount of food but they are still slim. I think one of the reason is we eat more vegetables and fruits.
This time when I go back to the course together with my Chinese colleagues, I was surprised how come they eat so much and all the time are eating something but they look still slim. When they looking at me eating a little bit salad for lunch, they say that I am becoming like a German now. But you are right, I found whenever I felt tired I want to eat until I feel my stomach going to explode.
Actually when I look back to the past, I(like many Chinese people) often eat things until over full.I have never paid attention to the quantity of food I eat as much as now.
Lingling